Setback

Since Saturday I have had an emotional and now physical setback. On Saturday I did my strength training and wanted to get some cardio in. Marc had to go out Saturday morning so I wasn't able to go to a class. I spent the morning and afternoon out shopping with the girls and Saturday evening I was cleaning the house like a mad woman. I spent 3-4 hours on Juliet's room and later realized I had a ton of prep work to do for my prenatal class the following day. So I never did get my cardio in. I also have a plantar wart that I have been treating on Saturday I wanted to go to the walk in clinic to get treated and that never happened.

Sunday morning was spent binding manuals, setting up, going to pick up Juliet from a sleepover and coming home to vacuum, which is Marc's job but he got called into work and wasn't going to make it home in time.

Monday I was to start my new strength training routine. I really did not want to get out of bed and ended up staying in bed until 8:30 am. I hoped that today I could get the groceries and pop into the walk in clinic to get my wart treated and get my workout in after lunch before heading out to see a client at 3 pm and another at 7 pm. The morning was a very slow start for the girls and I, first day of March break and all. We weren't ready to leave the house until 11:30 ish. Once finished the groceries we stopped off at the clinic to find a full waiting room, so forget that we bundled back into the car. At 2 pm we tried the clinic again but same story. At this point I figured my workout was shot but in the evening I could still get some cardio in. My evening appointment was quite quick and I was home around 7:45 pm so I tried the clinic again. It wasn't so busy this time but my family doc was there and he is a wart nazi. Part of the reason I like to go to the clinic is because my GP is so aggresive with wart treatment that I can barely walk for a day and a half. At the clinic I can still teach/workout that day. So this morning I had intentions of doing some Latin dancing since I will miss Zumba but those went to pot. I went to sleep with an ice pack on my foot, and the pain did not help my sleep. I had a hard time standing in the shower and I know there is no way I will be getting cardio in. I want to pamper and heal as best I can for my muscle conditioning class tonight.

Emotionally I am quite distraught. I baked a cake on Sunday and have since enjoyed three big pieces. No icing just Butter Pecan Duncan Hine, or Betty Crocker, can't remember which. And two glasses of wine last night. I feel i am slipping a bit and moving back into the "I don't give a hit" mode. That really frustrates me because I was feeling so great and positive and doing fabulous. I have also slipped on my probiotics and B complex, maybe I need to get back on the B vitamins as I am sure they contribute to my energy and mood, as well as the exercise. Hopefully once the workouts and vitamins resume I will be back to my positive self again.

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Today is results day again. First let me tell you the results for this week I am down 1 lbs and up 1/2". I know it is not a lot to be up but I am feeling disappointed and full of questions.

1. Was I so paranoid about losing too much weight that it thwarted my efforts?
2. I didn't eat as well in regards to my blood type, and had a lot of stomachache this week, did that contribute?

I am still really proud of my efforts. I had many people tell me this week they have noticed a big difference. When getting out of the shower today I noticed and praised how great my body is looking. I love touching my stomach and feeling how small it feels. Again I was slacking on my affirmations and thanks this week and have definitely had a more challenging week. I think more consistency with that and a change to my strength routine is in store. I have three programs from Sonny and I think it is time to vary it up. My body may have started to become accustomed to these exercises, it has been almost a month and a half. That will help keep my interest and shock my body.

Today I got up and did my strength training. I was hoping to take a class this morning but Marc had to go out to help his Dad and Grandfather, Juliet is still sleeping and Elizabeth needs a bath. The plan is to get an hour of elliptical in this afternoon or evening.

Hope you all have a great weekend. From the incredibly shrinking Michelle.

March 12th

Yesterday was not the greatest day. After Aquafit I was so exhausted all I wanted to do was come home and have a nap. I haven't felt that worn out in a long time. But I knew there was no time. I needed to eat lunch and take my car in for an oil change and maintenance. Once I got there they told me it would be 3 hours and offered a shuttle ride home. I said yet, however the shuttle would be more than 45 minutes so I walked home instead. It was a nice day but a lousy walk. Walking along North Service Road, passed Vortman's, luckily they were not baking cookies, and Appleby was so loaded with cars.

The evening was good with a great Doula meeting yet I had such an upset stomach when i got home, Elizabeth was in our bed and Marc was snoring like crazy. Not the best night sleep.

This morning I chose sleeping in to cardio. Went and taught Aqua and my shirt by the end of class felt like it had just come out of the washer. We have some of Elizabeth's friends over now and my hope is to get some cardio in tonight. Weigh in is tomorrow. I am on the fence, I hope to be down 3 lbs, 5 seems too much again and 2 or less might disappoint me. I guess I am just hard to please. I am sure Marc would agree.

March 11th

I am furious. I woke up early to get my strength training done and the basement was a total mess. So I had to tidy my workout area and got started close to my normal time. I wasn't even finished my first exercise when Marc came down to collect the garbage, having to squeeze passed me on the stairs making me stop what I was doing twice. During my second exercise Elizabeth woke up and came downstairs to continually interrupt. I defineitely need me time to workout. The exercises were harder and I didn't get the same flow of endorphins. I finished my workout before she should have woken up and checked my e-mail to see what my day had in store to find out one of my regional reps is still struggling to get the resources she needs for a baby expo she is running on Saturday. I have asked for things to be sent to her and resources that I don't have assess to, I have asked for how to get the resources so I can get them out to her with no luck. And in the back ground Elizabeth is nagging me. GRRRR. Not the way I was hoping to start the morning.

Some good news is that I will have to go clothes shopping. The pants I can make do with belts, tops fine but my underwear is falling down. Woohoo.

Yesterday I managed to get 1 hour on the elliptical, today I got my strength training in and am teaching Aqua today. I wasn't feeling totally up to my strength training and Murphy decided to throw on an extra challenge. I am glad I got through it. Now to sit down to a nice cup of tea and some breakfast. That should help my mood.

March 9th

I am hoping today will go according to plan. I am planning on going to Zumba with my cell attached to my hip as I may have to go laboursit today. This evening I have my muscle conditioning class which i should be able to make but with birth you just never know.

On Saturday I decided to treat myself but instead of clothes I bought heavier weights. My workout on Monday went well with the heavier weights. I had to buy 7 lbs instead of 6 lbs but I was pleased that it felt fine. I guess that means it is time to step it up at my muscle conditioning class as well.

I was getting a little concerned last week whether I am losing weight too fast. I want to make sure my weight loss is safe and permanent. But after talking to several people I think I will wait and see if I continue to lose 5 lbs every week or if it starts to slow. I am feeling fabulous, still eating when hungry and not feeling deprived or low on energy so I think I am good. If that changes I will definitely get things checked out. I guess it is just the Capricorn in me needing to worry about something.

March 8th

Another week has begun. By the end of last week I was getting a little off my game. Particularily yesterday when I got a shocker that my eldest has been wracking up charges of $359 on my credit card at iTunes. I was quite annoyed and felt overwhelmed and wanted to sit down and zone out with some bad indulgent food. Luckily I had a prenatal class to teach so it kept me occupied. Then dinner, which was healthy but the feelings came back. So I focused on a healthier way to address my emotions, with my dear friend the elliptical. I did an hour and felt so mellow when i got off. I put the kids to bed around 9 and popped a movie in for me, I could barely stay awake.

My weigh in is on Satuday so this week I am refocusing myself on my journey to be a healthier, stronger, better me. I have come to relaize this morning that I am working out a fair bit. it just doesn't seem that way because it is broken up through the day. However Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday I am doing between 1.5 - 2 hours of strength and cardio, and Thursday, Saturday 1 hour of something (dance, or Aqua) and Sunday I rest, maybe I will go on the elliptical for 30 hour but only if I feel I want to. People have begun to notice the changes and it feels wonderful.

March 7th

Long time no update.

Thursday I did my workout and was planning on going to participate in a deep Aqua class. yet Elizabeth had other plans for me. She had a rip roaring fever which pulled the plug to my plans. So that was all I got in for the day.

Friday I was going to workout in the morning since I was teach a prenatal class all day. While Elizabeth woke up at 6:45 so no workout once again. Excuses, excuse, I know.

Yesterday, Saturday, I got up and went to a Cardio Sculpt class, since I knew I was in need of both cardio and strength. In the evening Marc and I got together with some high school friends of mine. I enjoyed two beers and didn't eat the best I could but it also wasn't terrible.

Today I am teaching prenatal from 1 - 6 pm but will hop on the elliptical tonight.