My mantra

Sorry I did not post yesterday.  What started out as a shitty morning literally turned in to a really good day and high anxiety night.  I woke up yesterday morning to prepare for a very busy, lots of driving and sitting kind of day.  I finally put away the laundry I started last Friday, cleaned up my sheets and reflexology room from Monday to then have Elizabeth announce the upstairs toilet was clogged.  Marc bought a new plunger which he loves.  I was not so lucky with it.  After struggling with it for 20 minutes, sweating, with my clothes and the floor covered in poop coloured water I finally got it flushing.  Elizabeth had to pack her own lunch so likely not the best choices.   I got redressed, did a few more things and had to run out the door without breakfast.  Luckily I was meeting up with a friend at Starbucks (Trafalagar and Dundas).  That meant an expensive and not overly healthy breakfast of yougart and granola with a black coffee as I figured it would not be a good idea to get anything with milk or flavour shots.  From there I stopped off at Joe Fresh and did a bit of business casual clothes shopping although I ended up purchasing two cotton t-shirts, red solo cups, shampoo and underwear for Juliet and two bottles of white wine for Easter dinner on Sunday.  I then went to Payless Shoes stores and bought some super cute shoes (business casual) so overall I met my goal.  Down to Lakeshore and Trafalgar for a laser hair removal treatment and walked seven minutes (or so Google maps predicted) to The Green Bean Coffee Company to meet with a Holistic Nutritionist/RMT who wants to start networking.  Had an amazing lunch and London Fog, yummy.  Walked back to the car.  Stopped off at Dollarama because my cat litter scoop broke that morning and then home.  I received a text from a client while I was driving.  She was getting some prelabour signs.  Now this is my client I have already supported through two births and her labours are fast.  Now I didn't know what to do because I had class one of a prenatal class series starting at 7 pm.  It was 3:35 pm.  Do I go ahead with class knowing she will not need me until 9:30 - 10 pm once class is over, or do I postpone for one week?  I called my back up and another doula for advise and both said postpone it, ever just for the peace of mind and energy preservation.  In the end that is what I decided to do.  I had to stop several times and remind myself to breathe, I felt like I was just buzzing with anxiety of the hyper alert of being on call.  At 6:47 pm she texted to say everything settled down.  Crap, I should have gone ahead with class.  So that was yesterday.

Today is a new day.  I didn't realize but my run was 2 minute run, 2 minute walk, then two 3 MINUTE RUN, 3 minute walk, ending again with a 2 minute run, 2 minute walk.  It was tough, there was a lot of self talk going on that I adopted the mantra "I am stronger than my hormones" and that helped me overcome the negative self talk.  It did not help however with the menstrual cramps which got me wondering in women are endorphins and oxytocin constantly linked?  Because I seem to start getting menstrual cramps while walking after my second long stint of running, they cease while running and come back excessive strong on my final and cooldown walk.  I almost wanted to double over today they were so strong but "I am stronger than my hormones."

I will have an easy day today.  I am on high alert not only for my client but also tonight as a back up for a second time mama who was having early labour symptoms last night as well.  It could be a busy weekend.  Also Monday I took a sneak peak I have 3 minute run, 2 minute walk, two stints of 4 minute run, 3 minute walk, ending again with the 3 minute run, 2 minute walk.  Wow, it is amazing how far I have come.  Now time for breakfast.  Have a spectacular weekend.